Stress and Frustration

Usually, I have so much things to say on my posts... but this week has not been good for most of us. This time, it is my way for venting my frustration out on this post.

One is that I have been feeling under the weather on and off all in this week. It is so hard to handle both of my little students and my children on my own without giving me a FULL DAY BREAK.

It was a matter of a wrong time for being sick because all of the progress reports and Individual Education Program reports were due today. Also, I wanted to give the good impression to the principal on my first year at an elementary school (instead of being at junior high school.) The reports are completely different from Junior High School. I had to learn everything new at elementary school. Despite of having low energy, I am grateful that my mind is able to recite of what I had to do and complete the most important part of the trimester-doing the reports.

At least, I did something I had to do today. I just decided to kick my boys out to school and leave me home alone. I even forced my husband to pick the boys up after school because my body needs to recover for a special event- Deaf Expo which it will be held tomorrow. Am I a tough wife and mother?

Second, both of my sons did NOT have a good attitude. First, Ryan was losing his temper at one of the Reading Specialists. He was acting like he wanted to hit her (he never does- but had fists at her.) Then he grew his angry at her. His mainstream teacher told me while I was giving my students a snack before they went out for a recess. At that moment, I was about to lose my temper and wanted to wham him. What kind of an impression I would leave if I do that at school site? Instead of whamming at him, I forced him to do the work in my classroom and refrained from the recess. Not only forcing him to do the class work, I had him to write an apology letter to the Reading Specialist.

Later, Dylan went out to Cub Scout with his dad while Ryan was at home with me (His team did not have a meeting last night.) Dylan was fine for the first few minutes of a cub scout meeting. When it came to physically such as rolling it over, he just whined and complained that it would hurt his head while the other cub scouts did their part. They even encouraged him to do the physical activity. He just pouted and disobeyed several of physical activities including running. My husband, David, who was there, tried to explain if he does the physical activities he then will earn the badge. He just chose to continue his negative demeanor. Next year, I'm thinking about dressing him up as "Dennis the Menace" for Halloween. Wouldn't that be a perfect Halloween costume for him?

While I am dealing my frustration with my boys' attitudes and not feeling good at the same time, do you think it has anything to do with their behavior when they are sensing I'm sick? Or they re coming down from catching a flu from me, though they had their flu shot?

But still at the end of our straw, David and I decided to ground both of my boys not to have a computer or T.V for this weekend. We instead will make them do the chores for us ! I even had enough of their attitude even listening to the comments of telling me, "I'm cursed!" Groan! I wanted to put a pillow over me! Let's hope next week and on will better after teaching them a valuable lesson.